Monday, June 29, 2015

Finding myself

It's been 4 months since my last blog post.....and even longer since I felt like myself. I haven't stayed consistent with anything I've done this last year or so. I haven't workout on a regular basis or eaten healthy. I'm not tracking calories or meals. It's been nice to not worry about any of this, to not concentrate on a diet for once in my life. So your probably thinking.....what's the problem? Well, I've gained almost 50lbs. I'm not happy. I don't feel good. I'm not myself. The me who loved how I looked & felt. The me who was at the gym everyday. The me who ate healthy & shared my journey with all of you. I'm not that girl anymore.

When I first started all of this, I thought I was doing this for me. But thinking about it here for a while, I finally know it wasn't.  It was for everyone who thought I couldn't, for people who had doubts, concerns.....for people who I wanted to make proud. For everyone....but myself. And because of that, I've gained the weight back. I feel ashamed and saddened that I've gained that much weight . I don't want to admit it to myself let alone to any of you.
I have failed....miserably.
Looking back though, I'm glad I figured this out now. I haven't gained all the weight back. I'm not at square one, however I have learned through therapy and self discovery that this time it has to be for myself if I'm gonna keep the weight off. So I've spent the last few months finding myself. Finding that want within me to make the change. Not caring what others think or say. Not needing anyone's approval but my own. I still struggle with putting my needs first, and as a mom, I think I always will but I now know what kind of woman I want to be. What people I want to surround myself with & what my goal is. For myself and only me. I truly believe in my heart that's what I must do if I'm to be successful in the long term. So for what seems like the millionth time, I started again. today.



Finding myself has been a tough journey thus far. But going down this road has helped improve so many other parts of my life that I've been sort of neglecting, for years....including friendships & my marriage. I want to be healthy....all around....mind, body & soul. 

And that starts now.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

The Color Run - Race Recap

On Saturday, the family and I did the color run. Now, I've done this race in the past & I've also volunteered but this time I was an ambassador! The ambassador program was given to a few of us in the central Florida area based on our applications, interviews and blog followers. They gave us free registrations and a coupon code to help people save on their own registrations. We also had a prize tier based on how many people used our specific code. Thanks to my followers on Facebook, the blog & with the help of my friends & family I got high into the tiers and was able to win a bunch of awesome gear! Including socks, a tutu, a hoodie, extra color packets & a gift card to their online store. If your approached in regards to applying for this program, do it! My experience with TCR has been nothing but positive and I love the races each and every time! 

So this year was the Shine Tour...which meant GLITTER! I was super excited and this time a bunch of my family did it with me! 


We seriously had a blast! If you've never done The Color Run, how it works is, every kilo they squirt a powdered paint all over you. They are really great with the kiddos so bring them with ya!




This year they added glitter and it was the last arch we ran through....from then on, glitter was just everywhere....


Then, once you cross the finish line, they launh a color throw where everyone counts down and throws more color in the air! It's super cool!


I truly love this run and the TCR family. If they come to a state near you, register for it......you won't regret it!


Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Advocare 10 Day Cleanse Recap

The 10 days are over. I feel lighter, more energized. I feel good....I'm glad I did this. My body needed a bit of a detox from the holidays. So my starting stats were:

Weight: 205lbs
Total Inches: 160" 

And my final stats are

Weight: 203lbs 
Total Inches: 155.4"

That's a loss of 2lbs and over 4"! 


Throughout this cleanse I've researched a lot of different things I could do or try to give myself a healthy start. This needs to be a lifestyle change, not a quick fix. It needs to be something I can do and continue to do for the rest of my life. I've done a lot of looking into my body type and figuring out what works best. I found some great info on BodyBuilding.com they even have a test you can take. It was very informative and even gives you nutrition and fitness ideas. Here's what it gave me:


So this is how I will be trying to eat. Very low carb except for post workouts. Lots of fruits (lower sugar ones) and veggies & of course, lean meats. Already today I feel a hell of a lot better. It hard for me....I like my carbs but this is something I need to do to be the better me. I have to focus on myself, make better choices and be a greater me.....I can do it. I will do it. You can to.

Reminder, if your in the Orlando Area and want to join me in The Color Run, use code ORLANDO5 to get $7 off your registration! You can register here: 





Monday, January 5, 2015

Advocare 10 Day Cleanse - Halfway

So I'm 5 days into the cleanse & feeling good. I feel lighter, more energized. I don't crave the junk like I was before which was the main reason for this cleanse. Got on the scale this morning and this is what I saw, that's a loss of over a pound and a half! That makes me happy! I won't re measure till the end.



While on this cleanse, I've tried some different recipes and had to stay away from things like dairy, sugar, fats and I miss those things....not every aspect of them but the body needs healthy fats, the body needs some dairy and even sugar. I've been thinking a lot about what I will eat after I'm done with the cleanse and can get back to regular and truthfully, I don't wanna get back to regular, it's what has gotten me to this point. So, I decided that once the cleanse is done I will go vegeterian for a few weeks. That is the one thing I really can go without and I truly feel like it's the cause of a lot of my problems. I want my body to clean out and meat just sits in your body, for a while. So any vegetarians out there that have any suggestions, I'd love to hear them! 

Well here's to the next 5 days, let's make them count! I have step class tonight, Zumba Tuesday night & step class again Wednesday so I hope adding in some exercise will only increase my losses. 

Have a great week!

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

New Year - Advocare 10 Day Cleanse

I've done the Advocare cleanse before, you can read all about it Here & Here. It's my favorite for a few reasons....you can eat normal, regular meals with your family, it's not a starvation cleanse, it's inexpensive & pretty simple.

There are 3 things that come in the package and everything is taken at certain days & times.



Fiber Drink: Peaches n Cream flavor. This is the only flavor I can get down. I do not recommend the Citrus flavor unless you like to punish yourself...you have been warned ;) You drink this drink first thing in the am days 1-3 & 7-10.

Probiotic Restore Capsules: (white) are taken in the am, prior to breakfast & fiber drink days 4-10.

Herbal Cleanse Tablets: taken at bedtime days 1-7.

The rules of this cleanse are fairly simple; no dairy (which I think is the only down side since that means no shakes for me) no sugar, no white carbs but you can have any whole grains. My plan is to stick to just brown rice & whole grain bread only & no fats. 

My starting stats:


Chest: 43.5"
Waist: 42"
Hips: 50.5"
L Leg: 24"


My plan for the next 10 days is to eat as close to perfect as possible. No eating out, no cheats....nada! I will also be doing at least 30 min of cardio each day. I'm hoping to make it into the gym most days but it may just be an evening walk with the family. You can see what I'm eating on My Fitness Pal user Firebride.

This past year was really crappy weight loss wise and I'm hoping this cleanse gets me in the healthier mode. I know everyone else makes the same resolutions...."2015 will be my year!" and as corny as it sounds, that's what echos in my head. I can't continue down this same path. I can't tell you why I veered off this past year...I was doing so well, but I can tell you that I'm not letting it happen again. I feel myself creeping back into the same habits and routines that made me this fat, unhappy person....I don't want to be her. I deserve more...my family deserves more. 

2015 will be my year....our year....don't let anything stand in the way.


Tuesday, December 23, 2014

A Year in Review - 2014



This year was a bad year for me weight loss wise. It was a year I made a lot of empty promises to myself. I didn't lose any weight, in fact, I've gained almost 25lbs which is a shocking number that I hate to admit but it's obvious......I can see it in the clothes I wear and how I feel overall. I lack the motivation and drive to do the work I needed to and it shows...... This has been the first year in the last several years that I didn't have any other reason to gain weight other than just me being lazy......in the past I've been able to use having a baby or family issues as an excuse.....not this time, this was all me. I want to believe that this year my mind & body just wanted a year off....I mean, losing weight isn't easy and if you've been doing it as long as I have, it's tiring on both the mind & body for sure. But I can't take it anymore....I feel gross, lazy, out of shape, and just plain out of control. It's time for a change in a BIG way! I'm working on a game plan and I don't have anything further than this....cleanse. That's right, I think my body badly needs a cleanse....I need to rid the body of the toxins I've let build up over this last year. My favorite cleanse is the Advocare 10 Day Cleanse. I've done it in the past and it's truly the best I've done. It's doable, not expensive, you can eat foods that your whole family likes, you just need to stay away from the bad stuff....along with taking the probiotic, fiber drink, & cleanse tablets that are included in the kit. I'm hoping these 10 days jump start me into a healthier lifestyle and back on track in 2015. Once I'm done with the cleanse, it's back to the gym & on with the healthier eating. I'm not sure if I'm going to follow something specific with diet....I know it will be lower carb, but I'll let you know as I figure it out. 
Follow along with me and maybe if this is something that interests you, maybe I'll get some of you to do it along with me! To get your kit, click on the link above!



Things have started to look up though. I was just recently made Ambassador of The Color Run here in Orlando and that only aids in getting my butt back in gear. So to help get your butt in gear, I'm giving away some gear from The Color Run to some of you, my lovely readers! I also have 2 Free Registrations to giveaway as well!!! First things, share my blog around and get people to use my exclusive code ORLANDO5 to get to get $5 off their registration fees. Then, comment on this post with what Kick Ass way you plan to make 2015 your year! It doesn't have to be weight loss related....let's empower each other to be the best we can be this year!

Monday, November 24, 2014

I've been chosen.....

I'm so excited for this!

It's coming up on 3 years of starting this blog & my weightloss journey and along the way I've had up's and down's....like everyone,  but I never imagined where my blog would take me! When I was featured on aol.com and women's health.com I was honored! Never would I have though  that I would be someone they would want to feature. I'm no big star, no different then anyone else out there that struggles to lose the weight. Over this past year, I've struggled to keep the weight off and I've shared those struggles with you. It gets better day by day and then something comes along that makes you push harder!

So last month, I was sent just a general email from The Color Run about starting a Brand Ambassador program for different cities. Now, I love The Color Run! I ran their 5k's last year & volunteered too, you can read about them Here, here  & here . I filled out the long questionnaire they sent without a second thought that I would be chosen. Well guess what? I got an email stating today that I was, in fact chosen as Brand Ambassador for Orlando, FL!!!!! I am super excited to have this honor and even more so that they see what me and this little ole blog can do!!!! 




I've never had a meet & greet and although I've met some of my readers, I would love to meet more of you so here's your chance! Join my team, Orlando Ambassadors and get $5 off using code ORLANDO5 (must be all caps) If your not in my area, you can still use the code for $5 off. 




If this honor wasn't a kick in the ass, I don't know what is! Remember I've started my monthly 5k and this Thursday is The Turkey Trot! I gotta get down a few lbs and gain some confidence in time for my first race as Ambassador. Sometimes it just takes something small to get you there.....

I really hope I see some of you on my team and please spread the word.....